
If you have read my last post you would know my life has been so crazy busy lately,
I have been burning the candle at both ends, so to speak.
Coincidentally, at the blog
Lens*Us* Together this week the topic was "Out of Focus",
which was so exactly how I felt about myself in my own life.
Just focused on doing, doing, doing and not being...
like a little machine from morning until night, day after day.
So I posted the above picture, a self portrait, for this weeks Out Of Focus topic,
on
Lens* Us*Together with a post about my crazy busy life
and how I felt (sadly) out of focus with my own self.
As I was writing it, I was shocked I was writing it about myself and my own life.
It made me stop and wonder why I am creating this for myself?
The answers I have for most of the things were pretty good
(I felt driven to create and succeed in my businesses and love what I do),
but for some of the things I have scheduled there is no good reason other than
simply just saying "yes" to too many people.
I told myself this is it, from here on out I won't put anymore on my plate.
I am running 2 businesses, I have a 1 and a half year old at home with me (where I am blessed to work), I also work at a Montesorri school,
AND I am taking online college classes...
So I told myself, "OK, no more...Start saying No."
Ironically, within the hour I got a phone call for a request for me to give a massage...
yes, I am also a massage therapist! (make that 3 businesses!)
I don't really advertise, so I normally don't have much business unless I promote myself or do chair massage at events. This person had bought a gift certificate awhile back,
so I had to say "yes"!
My hubby heard me scheduling the appointment and when I got off of the phone he told me enough was enough.
He said that I needed to tell D's school to have someone else teach the art program.
We went back and forth about it. He said aside from his busy work schedule that is not flexible enough to take care of G while I teach it, I am not taking care of my own needs and self and just keep taking on more stuff.
I argued with him, but in my heart I knew he was right.
Teaching art each week plus taking the art teacher training was a lot...
and now I had no one to watch G.
I hated having to tell his school I couldn't do it, but they were understanding, I was so relieved! And I reminded myself D and G will be in school for YEARS to come,
plenty of time for me to volunteer!
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I must say from the moment I said no to the school, doors are already opening for me,
like a reward for going in the right direction, following the right path.
And in return I am able to breathe again and have a clear mind.
I am back IN FOCUS in MY OWN LIFE! Yay!!!
I realize,my heart just wants to do too many things, but I am only one person, and I am finding out I am not super woman, and its starting to be stressful and yucky, and no fun.
Life should definitely be fun, right?!?
And anyway, most importantly, I want to be a fun mom, not a grouchy mom!
(And wife too!)I am so, so, so grateful for all I have!Anyway, if you are still here with me, thanks for reading!
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Have a great weekend!
xoxo Shell